Thursday, April 5, 2012
something i've never done.
This is what I am doing. I have shaken up my life. I am taking control of my life and going for what I want. This is the first time in a very long time that I have really focused on myself and really thrown myself into the deep end.
I have a huge goal and somewhere deep down I know that I will make it. Something just clicked. This "clicking" has been a long time coming and it's something I just couldn't fake. I had tried before thinking I could "take" to a new lifestyle, new career, new "me" but in reality I was kidding myself. The change came when I heard someone speak the truth I had been waiting to tell myself. They said "I told myself that it was ok, it wasn't that bad". This is exactly what I had been telling myself for a very long time, it's ok, it really isn't that bad, I can change if I want to, it's easy. FOOLING MYSELF. That's where I have been at.
For the last three weeks I have been focused, my mind set has changed and I feel different. I can visualise my goal, I know it is within reach. I know it will take hard work, I know it will be a long road filled with some huge challenges but when all is said and done I must be and I WANT to be accountable.
Follow my journey to a new me here. As I go along I am going to divulge more and more of what this means but for now I just want to focus and remember why I am doing what I am doing. No distractions, no excuses.